I've overcome my feelings, at least for today.

I have decided to move to Cedar City. It's a solid decision. I know I've been planning on moving to the North West (Portland or Seattle,) but that will have to wait.. It will probably be another year before I make that move. I have no clue where I would live in Cedar, but I have plenty of connections there. I've been offered housing, whether it be realistic or not I cannot say--I do trust there will be affordable housing for me though, and employment. Not sure if I'd be able to get a transfer to the Wal-Mart in Cedar, but there is always other decent jobs in Cedar. I am an experienced stocker now, I suppose, among other things.

I do have a problem though... transport... My parents are refusing to let me carry on with the car I am borrowing from them, if I am to move that distance. Even though it is a piece of shit, and I can pay for the insurance, maintenance, et cetera. Maybe if I offer to purchase it from them... I could just buy a car, but I refuse to dig into savings, and only have about $300 of credit paid, and the $700 to pay it in its entirety is not coming in too quickly.

Emotionally today; I'm feeling quite well. The party last night was, quite literally, my first true party. I called in sick for the second time this pay-period, but it was extremely helpful. I'm quite calm, contented. It is necessary for me to give up on _____, I hadn't a chance with her anyhow. I now consider her a close friend and will leave my emotional attachments as such. It would be nice to meet a nice girl, but for now I refuse to take an offensive in the matter. It is far too stressful.

listening to: Final Fantasy - Has A Good Home
reading: Rainbows End, by Vernor Vinge