I have deleted the last two post out of... revelation, I suppose. Not a spiritual revelation in the common sense of the word spirit;--I'm atheist--rather in my personal philosophy. I have realized that, yes, I do have some problems with depression and also that I do not have to treat it in such a manner. I can, through recent paradigmatic amendments, make myself happy through memories, relaxation techniques, and forced rational thought. It's actually quite simple--so far.

I feel bad now... I know I'm not a very nice or caring person when I'm in such a mood. I think I hurt other's feelings; not only those of members of my family but close friends as well. I will not name them here, and I will not state my apologies here, but I will--I will--apologies to them in person. I don't have more to say, really. Other than that I'm OK; un-lost, hah.

listening to: The Shins - Wincing The Night Away