You're beautiful. Stunningly. Your heart, mind, and body.

Why not? I'm afraid.

Yesterday I said I "Gots me a job," and today I really do have a job! I went into Arby's today to turn in my application and the manager decided to interview me on the spot. It was a very easy interview, only a few questions were asked, none of them hard. I knew I had the job the second I turned in my application, it wasn't a tough job to get. I will be working full-time once I have been trained, day shift. I start $7.00/hr, training starts tomorrow. =) I was a little dissapointed--not at all surprised, though--that their dress code incluced "no facial pierings" and "no earings on boys whatsoever." I was planning on getting my ears guaged to 12mm and two tongue piercings. I might be able to get away with stretching my lobes, but I'm not sure about the tongue, since it might imped my speach for the first few days (or even a week). They seem flexible and nice. As long as I'm a good worker I will increase my chances of getting the tongue piercings. *shrug*

listening to:
Andrés Segovia - The Segovia Collection

So! I have found a job. That was actually quite easy. I think what I was stressing about was more the idea of trying to find a job rather than the action of. I went to Wal-Mart, found out my PIN, stopped by Best Buy to see how to apply (online), then I stopped by Arby's. I know two people who work there, and they are both fun to hang out with, so working should be at least a little fun. I even talked to the manager, she pretty much told me I would get the job. It was great.

You know what else is great? Quake III Arena. Yes, yes, it is an old game. A game born in the late 90's iirc, but still one of my most favorite first person shooters. It doesn't have much of a story line, which is fine with me, because the ultra fast-paced gameplay, and the great weapons and mods more than make up for the lack of story. It should be everyone's favorite, it sure is mine. I nearly beat it all last night on Hardcore difficulty. Which is one below the most difficult. I suppose that makes me pretty skilled, eh? (probably not...) I love how xfire tracks all of your QIII stats. What weapons you use the most, what weapons you're the best with, what weapons you die with most, what levels you are the best at, the list goes on! I love it. ^>^

listening to:
Frank Sinatra - The Very Best of Frank Sinatra

Finding a job is not fun. Yeah, I sent an application up to Zion Ponderosa, but now I highly doubt I will get the job up there. I've been trying to apply for a job at Wal-Mart, but I guess since I applied more than 60 days ago--for a job that I must be 18 to do--I am not able to get a new PIN. I forgot my old pin, I forgot my old login and password. I can't get a new one though, because it hasn't been 60 days! I don't know why the hell it matters how many days it has been, and they won't even give me a new PIN online, I have to go to Wal-Mart to get it. Frustrating! There is a possible job at Arbys in Coral Cliffs, or whatever that place is called. I hear they start with $7.00/hr, but I really, really, really, hate working with food. It wouldn't be so bad if I were just a cook, but they would probably make me work up front... Wal-Mart would just be a nicer job as well, I would probably get higher pay. Other than that, I really don't know where any job openings are.

If I do get a job before January, I might start school at Dixie College in St. George. Only because that would be practical if I was able to fit it in, and pay for it without much trouble. It would be cheap and I can live at home until I move out. Maybe by then I would have a good enough GPA to get into a university somewhere. I've been thinking a lot about moving somewhere in Nothern California, if I was able to support myself. I really like the idea of moving to Washington, but I like the idea of moving to Northern California even more. It is a lot less likely... but I would still love to go to school somewhere up there. I hear San Fransisco and surrounding areas are a lot more lax towards tattoos and piercings. ;)

listening to:
Herbie Hancock - Empyrean Isles

So today my mom and I went in to the office and took me out of school. I still haven't checked out of my classes... but I really don't have to go to class anymore. It's a weird feeling, and a really horrible one. I feel bad for dropping out of school, everyone thinks you're stupid, or feels bad for you because you won't be successful later in life, or whatever.

I'm hopefully getting a job soon at a resort in zion "Zion Ponderosa." I mailed in my application today. They said there were hiring for positions on their site, so I'm thinking I should get the job easily enough. Employees stay in dorms at the resort, so it would be a fun experience. It would probably help my social life too, since I have none. I seriously never do anything. I go to school, come home, and hang out using my computer. I don't even do anything when I'm on the computer, I just don't have the motivation to do anything. I don't know what I can motivate myself with, I just never feel like doing anything anymore.

I already said I was going to, but now my Myspace profile is officially delete. Woo.

So I was bored on the internet today and decided I wanted to look at branding stuff, and now I want one, haha. The cutting scarification looks really neat too. See these links:

byblair.com
bodymod.org
timelaps cutting

I am now 100% sure that I will not be graduating high school, if I even go the rest of the year. I know and have known that I wasn't going to be able to get a high school diploma, just because I hate high school so much. So I'm going to do something... Get a job and start going to a community college somewhere in the North West. My brother said I could live with him in Bothell, and Amy said I can live with her in Portland, so I have pleanty of options. I'm just not sure what to do exactly, or how. Things will work out though. I'm not too worried.