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I've been really drained the past few weeks. I'm now in my second quarter of college at Everett. Everything is going really well. I'll probably finish again with a 4.0 GPA. It is right now, anyway -- and midterms are coming up. My classes aren't getting any harder. Well, I suppose in a way they are. I seem to get really depressed from about midterms on. I'm not really sure why because I'm doing excellent and love being in class. It just sorta happens. It makes things really hard. Hopefully by the time I'm off taking full credits and more difficult and interesting classes I'll have something figured out to battle the depression. Unfortunately I'm jobless... but looking! Starbucks did call me back the other day but had ~200 more applicants to sift though before moving on. The lady seemed to like me and said she would call back. I haven't heard from here, but I assume it will be a week or so before I do, anyway.

My poor fish, Big Black (pictured), was attacked by my plecostomus, Pleco. Pleco is now gone but Big Black has not quite recovered. Right after the attack Big Black's wounds became infected with a fungus, which you can sort of see in the picture. It's been three days since I've been treating it but it still hasn't quite gone away. I hope he gets better! =( He's been around for more than a year now and I've grown very close to him -- it's weird... I've never been so close to an animal before, heh.

Not much else is going on. Still mostly friendless here. I don't have anyone that I can really hang out with, or who have reached out to me do to so. It's pretty terrible not being able to have a good friendship like that... I'm sorta coming to terms with it though. Why shouldn't I be a recluse!?!?!?

The last few weeks have been a blur for me. A blur in the sense that I've been busy at work, not at play. The last month or two have flown by. Before I know it I will be attending school every day, struggling even more with money than I am now.

School will be wonderful for me. I've been feeling doomed beyond belief about my future. Which as of now looks... well... isn't there. I have decided that I will major in Biology. I want a PhD. I want to go to UW. Hopefully going to EVCC will be the bridge I need to cross in order to do that. I have a feeling that I will be successful this time, for once.

I've been training for a marathon over the last 4 weeks or so. I ran 13 miles on Sunday. It was wonderful. The feeling of success in just that 13 miles is greater than most things I've done in my life. I can't wait to finish my first marathon (26.2 mi.) I want to train for the Iron Man as well (approx.: 2 mi swim, 100 mi bike, 26 mi run,) which would take about 36 weeks. 15 hours or so a week of training. I love training. I wouldn't mind doing this as a profession. I might try.

Coming out of my shell is still a work in progress. I'm doing much better, but I still need work. I know it's been two years now, but I'm quite introverted. I'm making some friends at work, but I'm not sure if those friendships will extend beyond there. I kinda hope so... I still don't have any friends I can relate to as well as my friends back home. No one to share philosophy with. No one to be lazy with.

It will all settle in time. I hope. I am feeling hopeful today...

I've been lacking proper sleep lately. I'm probably averaging 4-5 hours a night on the week days. I over-sleep on weekends. But that never helps.

I've been working at Nintendo for two weeks and a half now. It's OK. I always have a hard time staying awake at work though. Playing the DS for 8 hours isn't all that it's cracked up to be. It's difficult to hold the thing. Your neck always ends up in a weird position and chronic pain ensues. I don't think they'll bother to make any adjustments to the work environment simply because of that though. We're temporary employees. I'm hoping that my jobs lasts until I start taking college classes at EVCC. At which point I have no idea what I'll do with myself. I'm behind on all of my bills and really hoping to catch up by then. Maybe the school will have jobs available for students, or something. I don't care about taking shitty jobs anymore. I just want to go to school and get by on what I can until I'm finished.

I want to go do DigiPen, I've decided. I'm not sure I'm smart enough, though. Programming (in college) takes some serious dedication to maths. I would love to be good at math, it's of high interest to me, I just have never had any luck grasping it. I'll try extra hard in my college math classes and maybe get a tutor. I'm sure I can be at least slightly successful within that subject.

Recently I have started building up my music collection again. I had lost 100% of my music for quite some time. I'm probably at about 1/3 of what I had before. Based on amount. I still am having to hunt down artists that I had discovered in the past. Though all this discovering, and ultimately sharing with the torrent community, I have felt the urge to do some review writing. I also feel like I should get out to more shows here in Seattle. I don't have any friends to go with, but I could take Katie's brother, Zach. We are friends, in a way.

I feel bad saying that I don't have any friends here, but I really don't. Not true friends. I have several very good acquaintances that I talk to with from time to time. But they are all Katie's friends. They invite Katie *and* me over. I am secondary and not really necessary to the transaction. I had met some good friends in the past through work, but after some time they stopped returning my calls and texts. I gave up hope. It's been 2 years now. I'm really sick of this.

On a lighter note. I've been training for a marathon with Katie's dad, Dan. We have been running for about 4 weeks now. We run almost every day, with long runs on Sunday. Meaning upwards of 10 miles or whatever the training schedule says. We will not be running my first marathon until November at which point we will be running the Seattle Marathon. I am very excited about this, and have contemplated getting a 26.2 tattoo in commemoration of the feat. I might wait until I've run more than one to get the tattoo, on second though. Just to make sure the feeling is right. We ran our first race, an 8k, during Sea Fair; the Seattle Torchlight run. We ran well and finished in decent time -- 45 minutes. I hope to become a lot faster, but I am currently fat and in poor shape.

Katie is away at camp this week, I miss her a lot. She will be back this weekend. I think we are going to cook dinner for my brother's family (including Johanna, who is visiting the area.) I'm not sure what we'll do just yet. Maybe some chow mien or tofu stir fry stuff with our recent discovery: Fresh Spring Rolls with Peanut Sauce. Yummy. So, I am lonely this week without Katie. Time is going by slowly, and I have a hard time sleeping and staying entertained without her. I am going to buy Call of Duty: World at War tomorrow so we can play it through together when she comes home. I get paid tomorrow.

On another note: the bank is stupid. Or maybe it's simply the fact that I am bad with credit of any kind. I have not used my credit card for over a year and it is still maxed and overbalance. I hate this. I despise my actions. I will regret this continually for years, I'm sure. Fucking banks.

Speaking of money, I need to start saving money for a rental deposit. Katie and I plan on moving out soon, but both have shit when it comes to savings, and Katie isn't working currently. I want to live on my own again. I want to be self-sufficient again. It's embarrassing.

I miss my friends. They probably are not aware of how much and how often I miss them. I don't often talk about it. I want them to be here with me and enjoy this beautiful area, the great city. I wish it were easier...

listening to: Radiohead - In Rainbows